It doesn't end.

We're back in WA. I'm back online. I haven't posted here because I haven't known what to say. Cancer has... ravaged more lives in just the few weeks we've been here. My grief has taken on even more shades. I'm trying to relearn how to live in my own house with my husband. Life is good, and hard, and sad, and tiring.

I was very saddened and shocked to see that Amanda of . it's not just an astrological sign anymore
lost her husband. I just can't even imagine...

Soon after my Dad returned he called to tell me that our dear family friend, Larry, had been diagnosed with a Stage IV cancer of some type. They were still working to identify the primary. It was determined that he had kidney cancer and surgery was an option so that was scheduled for Good Friday.

I will spare you all the details, but Larry died in surgery. That was a blow to me and to many. Larry and his wife, Sarah were our most steadfast friends during Mom's illness. They have been steadfast friends of our whole family for a very long time. It's so unfair. All of this unfolded in less than a month.

This disease is diabolical. I KNOW There are survivors--those of you out there who are reading this. I NEED YOU to beat this. Please believe that you can and do it.

For the first time ever I understand why we, as Christians, say, "Come, Lord Jesus." The hurt, the wrongness, the destruction, the unimaginable unfairness must end. And that is the only way I believe that it will.